Whoops - where did the time go?

 Wow, it's been a while since I've sat down and done this, and the empty page in front of me is looking quite daunting. But I've missed this, I miss the therapeutic feeling of emptying my thoughts onto a page and setting them free. So I'm back, with a lot of thoughts, a lot of updates, and a lot of plans. 

Initially I thought about just coming straight back in with a random post about something cool I've done recently. but when I saw that the last post I published was over a year ago, I thought a tidy up piece would be better first as A LOT has happened since I last pressed 'publish'.


Life Update

1. Starting with the biggest (and best) change, I am very happily settled into a gorgeous relationship. It is happy and healthy and everything a relationship should be. We are currently looking to move in together, and I couldn't be more excited about that. Yes - we have been to IKEA together and mapped out our dream house which we know is entirely unrealistic and impossible in a rented placed - doesn't everyone?

2. I have travelled, a lot. Within the last 12 months my passport has seen more action that it has in the rest of my life before now. I've been to Paris, Amsterdam, Japan, and Norway! (And I still have Berlin to come before the end of the year!) I am absolutely planning on doin...

I married myself!

 Yes, you read that right - I married myself and it was bloody lovely. 

For a long time, I've wanted to do something entirely for myself that represented all of the self love, and self acceptance work that I've put in over the last few years (and keep putting in, now). It's no secret that my brain isn't always very kind when it comes to the way I see myself, and so I needed to find something that I could do which would ensure that I am always trying my best to love and accept myself, even on the bad days. Thus - the self-marriage idea was born!

This idea has been a WIP for quite some time now - I knew that it was a niche idea, albeit very on brand for me, and so I knew I wanted it to be a really intimate experience with just a few people that I am extremely close with. Once I had decided on who I wanted to be there with me, all I had to do was plan it. 

I wanted an officiate, a bridesmaid, a best man, and a guest of h...

Trying to find my inner peace

Where on earth have the first 4 months of the year gone, please? I decided this morning that I was going to write a new blog post today, and was so genuinely shocked when I realised that I hadn't posted anything on here since January! Time to rectify that and get back into the swing of things, I think. The problem is, I spent so much of my time writing for other reasons - work, university, journaling, poetry, fiction writing, that blogging ends up being pushed to the back and before you know it, almost half a year has passed.

But enough of that, I'm back. And not only that, I've set a schedule for the next few months covering different things that I want to write about to get back into a routine. I think that's enough of an introduction (and enough excuses), so I'm ready to write about something that I am really trying to focus on at the moment - trying to find my inner peace. 

It is no secret that I have struggled with mood swings, anxiety, depression and the rest of it my entire life. And while I, and my doctors, are currently working towards diagnosing something that we think might be the root cause of most of those issues, I have been really trying to work on myself and to find ways in which I can access my inner peace. To do so, I've created a 5 step plan. I have always been a very spiritual person. I read tarot, and practice white witchcraft, I track the moon & planet cycles, I believe in the power of crystals, a...

30 things to do before Iā€™m 30!

In honour and recognition of turning 29 recently, I've created a list of 30 things I would like to do before I turn 30 this December. Everything I chose is something Iā€™ve either never done before, or is something I havenā€™t done as a child and so have no recollection of doing it! I wanted the list to be achievable, but not something that I could complete in a week.

I decided to add the list here mostly so that I can hold myself accountable, but also I know that Iā€™ll feel a real sense of accomplishment if this time next year I can submit another post that says ā€œI did all 30 of the things I wanted to do!ā€


    Another year over - Hello 2023!

    It has taken me all day to sit down and write this, because quite simply I didnā€™t know where to start! 2022 was a big one, it was the first year post pandemic that actually felt ā€œnormalā€ (or as normal as life can be these days!) and so because of that it was absolutely full to the brim with rescheduled events, last minute ticket purchases and a lot of making up for lost time!

    As always with a new year looming over me, itā€™s all too easy to look back on the year and focus on everything that went wrong, so instead I wanted to document everything that went right, or at the very least the highlights, because it turns out 2022 wasnā€™t too bad at all. 


    Events

    Iā€™m back!

    It has been months, literal months, since I have sat down at my computer with the sole intention of writing a blog post. Life, as it so often does, got completely on top of me and the free time (and more importantly, the mental power) I had to sit and write very quickly dwindled into nothingness. But I am back, with eager fingers, a lot to update you on and a plan for regular posts in the new year!

    So what have I been up to?

    Mirror Image - a poem

    She forces herself to look in the mirror
    And all she sees staring back
    Is a monster
    The visual representation
    Of the numbers on the scale
    Beneath her feet
    When sheā€™s forced to use them
    Somebody that deserves to be hidden away
    Under loose, black clothes
    And fake confidence
    An oversized body to be ashamed of
    A blotchy red face covered in scars
    Untameable hair with a mind of its own
    And a list of symptoms from a medical condition
    That nobody ever wants to hear about
    Filled with a hatred so intense
    Her vision starts to blur as she turns away
    From the reflection
    Leaving it wondering what it has to do
    For her to finally find a way
    To love it

    Her friends look at her and see
    Somebody fiercely loyal and kind
    Full of bad jokes and loud laughs
    Somebody who is always trying to be better

    Happy Pride! Five of my favourite queer reads!


    Wow, itā€™s been a minute since I sat down and wrote one of these, hasnā€™t it? I canā€™t believe that itā€™s June and and I havenā€™t uploaded anything since April! In my defence, the past few months have been unbelievably busy for me, and when youā€™re trying to juggle writing a book, uni work, an Etsy shop, a full time job AND still have some kind of functioning social life, some things start to slip, and unfortunately - this was one of them!

    But enough about that, itā€™s pride month and I am here, I am queer, and I am ready to ā€¦.write? (I couldnā€™t think of another word that rhymes with ā€˜hereā€™ and made sense, let it go). As itā€™s June, I obviously wanted my first post back to be pride, and also book themed. Because while Iā€™ve been busy, Iā€™ve also been busy reading, and I have got some new queer books to shout about. So I thought, why not do a ā€œfave queer booksā€ post - and so here I am.

    My top 3 books from the first quarter of the year

    Itā€™s been a while, hasnā€™t it? Itā€™s the 9th of April, and I am just now sitting down to write my first blog post of the year. To tell you the truth, I just havenā€™t had the time. The first few months of the year were packed full of trips, postponed events, work, university, and writing a new book (but the final part hasnā€™t been announced yet, so keep it to yourself, yeah?)

    One thing I have been finding the time for is reading. I always tend to slow down towards the end of the year as time slips away from me, but I am making a very conscious effort to read as much as I possibly can at the moment and so naturally - I have some thoughts to share!

    ā€œNever meet your heroesā€ debunked.

    Anybody who knows me, knows that I am a massive Fan of Russel Brand. As a teenager I watched all his shows/films religiously, read his books cover to cover as quickly as I could so that I could start them again, I even changed my style to match his, resulting in me being called Russel Brand for most of my secondary school life (but the less said about that phase of my life, the better.) As an adult, I have continued to follow his life journey, tuning in to his videos and podcasts, and still reading his books. To cut a long story short, I find him not only funny, and relatable, but also incredibly inspiring.

    I am a deeply spiritual person, I meditate daily, I believe in the power of the universe and that of a higher being (although I am not religious), and I find his discussions and insights to be very valuable and interesting ā€“ I feel like I am constantly learning when I watch/listen to/read his work.

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